March

My birthday month is here. Time fly really fast, and soon my school SYF competition is here.

Life is zooming past fast, and I am stuck thinking hard as well, in my next step. Hardwork I can handle, but exactly what i should be doing now?

We need a change of business fast, to make our future easier to live by. Day by day, we are not making progress. Because he is procrastinating.

And I hate him for that! What’s the point of complaining so much, if he is not doing anything. I swear, sometimes he just don’t care. I am annoyed. But anyhow, I will go on with my inner thoughts and plan of we are going ahead, I guess I am really alone. And I have only myself to blame and push on since I choose this path.

I hoped it’s worth it!

Work and work.

Getting the hang of work. But not good enough, I am trying but sometimes my mind and body fail me.

Still have a long way to go. But I can never be good enough.

At least school is back online and I enjoy every single seconds creating and loving these students. For they are my breath, my energy and my life. Their existence makes my life easier, working on the yard.

Keep pushing Denise.

Standstill

Everyone is ahead of me, when it comes to life. Everyone knows where they are heading, and what is their next chapter. I thought I jumped into the next chapter knowing where my life will be. But in the end, sadly I am just lagging behind. Everyone knows where they are staying. And what is their wedding like. Where and when it would be held. And as for me? I am lost, in tears and stressed.

I don’t think I am cut to have a good life.