I am totally beat for the past weeks, couldn’t wake up, couldn’t keep those already small eyes of mine open. I am really very tired.
I complain to James on how tired I’m totally, and yet I was kind of worried about 2010. Cause it almost as if I am starting out like a fresh grad. I’ve done my best, and send out all my resume to the schools, but yet not one reply me ):
As much as I’m all that bubbly. I am really worried. What if my decision to leave the company to be a freelancer again, is proven wrong? OMG, I am worrying myself day and night, that it is driving me insane.
I didn’t think that a job change can be so worriesome. My friends simply take it like a pinch of salt, taking the time off as simply a long extended holiday. I can’t seem to do that.
That’s bills to be paid, expenses to be met, allowances to be given.
I seriously don’t know where I can find the cash flow to tide me over.