Yesterday, Mel was the only one that TEXT ME (: Ahahahahas I am happy that she cared.
Anyways, after clearing things up and me being as childish as Wanjie (no offense), I went on a whole crazy-emo text msg craze. I know I know, I am insane and not to mention I can imagine Mel being shocked. But it’s been clear that I have no one else to turn it already, besides her and Wanjie.
I may looked like I had it all, but clearly I have nothing. I love to pretend, and clearly I am such a great pretender.
Yesterday was like my breaking point already, texting her while tearing was simply not cool ): But I couldn’t control my emotion and have no one else to blame but myself. I put myself into this sort of situation that I hate a lot.
So many times, I tried to move away, so many I had failed miserably. I used to be stronger, but now I am a fucked-up loser.
But I promised myself that there will be limit, and like what I told Mel one day I will just walk away without trying.