I find it amusing that people are trying to get close to me, but yet I managed to pushed them away. Just far enough, to hang them by a thread.
I am not very sure why I even bother, but hey at least I am not alone. At least at the end of it all, my weekly schedule is packed. But all this mind-fucking games will slowly hit me, and bite me in the ass. And unfortunately, I can’t seem to stop. It came to the point that I am doing it with a snap of a finger. It comes so naturally, that I think that I am scaring myself. It doesn’t mean that I am evil, it simply became a habit.
I do not trust myself enough, to believe anyone is sincere or true.