Need to bloody stop, get my act together. Cause when I woke up this morning, I realised something.
Realising that this might be the permanent me. Realising that I don’t give a fuck, and it is starting to scare me. Realising that I might probably be labelled, but I don’t give a damn. Realising that I can’t feel anymore, and that shouldn’t be that way. Why is it that way now?
I have this strange feeling for the whole day, and I can’t seem to shake it off ): I am starting not get myself, so many unexplained stuff and random acts.
Doesn’t matter, I am working harder, to stop myself from thinking. I am back to taking more classes. 8am class! Good lord, seriously! Hopefully, all is well cause I personally don’t like to teach enrichment classes. Uninspired students are simply so difficult, cause dance it simply not for everybody. But never mind, a promise is a promise. I can’t turn my friend down.
It is like so hard to pen down my thoughts now. So difficult to express myself. Urghhhhh.