What are we exactly doing? I am not clear on my part.
But the feeling is mutual, and the chemistry is fucking awesome. Interestingly enough, we know this will not last at all. However, we are always dancing the same old Tango. Over and over again, ‘debating’, ‘quarrelling’ and ‘questioning’. But we never seem to get a final answer. I don’t understand, but mainly partly it is my own fault.
Afraid of failure
It is still haunting me. And I rather be alone, with occasion moments with someone else. But never to hang on. But at times, my hearts beat faster for certain special person and I would think, “hey maybe I am opening up”. But alas, I would face a minor disappointment. Nothing major as what James Chua have done to me, but nonetheless, a setback.
So why bother trying.
Doesn’t matter, for now, I will close one eye and just let it flow naturally. It works better, when I don’t think.