Losing sleep, my whole body hurts like crazy that I woke up several times. Head always hurt,and I forgot how many panadol I had been taking. Lack of appetite,which I can’t decide if it is a good thing or now. But I am losing the fats around me. And if I am still dancing, I would be dancing for joy already. But sadly, I am not, just numb all over.
I need to escape, but my mother is not letting me go. She is driving me crazy to a whole new level. Not that I don’t love her, but my mom is always like that, crazy. We just ride on emotions.That is why I hate telling her stuff, she just go more hysterical than me.
Next week,will be my1st time, doing things alone, in a foreign country. And it is as exciting as hell, but I am equally afraid. I am always the girl who needs to be around people. I can’t be alone, and yet I chose to be alone now. I don’t know what got into me. Just maybe, I need to break the rules sometimes.
I am very tired of conforming to the world. Very tired to try my hardest.
So much to research on and brush up on my terrible Cantonese. Seriously. Time to find my friends, and go for a spin. Countdown: 7 days.