By the time this is post out,I should be with Fei, taking HK by storm by hitting the clubs. Seriously, I requested for a easy on the liver trip. And he planned for Ladies Night the min I touched down. My bestfriend, what can I say.
I cannot imagine what is in store for me, but I welcome the escape. A lot has happened within the weeks, of everything. As much as everyone is that curious, it is hard to tell what is actually going on. It is downright messy, but I am fighting on. I am not sure what I am doing is the right thing. But the one that he is right about would be that, “We are clingy to each other.”
He is leaving for M’sia too, for a planned relative wedding to attend. And I will be in HK, miles apart. Time to really think, analyse and feel. I don’t know if I am losing him,or I am actually losing myself. The feeling is tiring, and terribly insecure. I simply do not know what to do, at all. I don’t know if I should start dating, and whether I should let him go. I don’t know if he has already started dating and that, everything is just an options.
Standstill, that is what we are.
But I am truly holding onto blind faith for both of us. Blind faith, is something that is new to me, and I don’t know why am I doing it. I never gamble, but for once I can really boldly say that this is the 1st ever gamble. I have always been a planner, but years after the terrible setback taught me to NEVER plan. #comewhatmay
And I am truly scared. I am not sure if this works.