I am back from HK, and so much have happened in thoughts and soul. 3 short days away made me think a lot. Aside from the usual craziness that Fei had brought me, to forget and just stop losing weight, Fei have been really kind to me, and we really sat down had a few rounds and just talked.
HE truly went through everything with me. And commented that I grown up a little more. I cried over that silliness, but he was really that asshole whom stuck with me. Conclusion is not conclusive, but I can feel that I am pulling myself away day by day. Shin is right, when she texted me on the Friday morning.
I am getting tired, truly. But the refusal of letting go is stupid. Even by my standards.
And so, after this call, marks a really bittersweet moment, my fears are damn right. And we are just not meant to be. I don’t know how to make out my emotions right now. But all I know is that I feel lost, I don’t know what I should do next. I feel like flying back to HK and hide for awhile more. But that is just way to random, and I don’t think Fei can take any more of my random bullshit. I need to get back into my routine, and maybe fill in the gaps in between. Hello Christmas season.
Am I going to start seeing anyone?