I don’t know how to begin, and certainly I am lost for words. But all I want to say is thank you. The gift, last night was far too expensive for me to have it. And I feel that I can’t accept such gift. It feels like I will owe you something, for awhile. And it’s a scary feeling to have.
Although it might mean nothing, not a big deal. But to me, it meant everything, I supposed. Cause I don’t believe in gifts unless it is from the heart. And I do think somehow it’s from your heart (hopefully). I wanted to hug you and kiss you real hard. But given the circumstances, I can’t. Not at all. To control my emotions is pretty hard thing to do. This simply needed to be done.
I guess, hahaha I found it hard to express myself properly cause waking up with the same stun feeling is still lingering there. And well the future is just too unsure for me right now. I still choose not to think too much or too deep into every single day. And just live life.
I now know babeh feels.