Monday blues.

Monday blues, the week went by in a blur. I am back teaching my students, trying to concentrate, trying to focus and work. But I am zoning out.

But what is wrong?

I am fighting with my inner self. What I want and reality are always at loggerhead, at each other throats. And I realized something. I am destroying myself by contemplating if I should eat or not. And that is just ridiculous. Every day I would stare at food, and think if that should be inside and down my throat. I knew that I need to eat, but yet I stop short after half of the already little rice I asked for when ordering.

So much swimming in my mind, and yet I can’t express.

This is deadly, will I kill myself slowly and quietly?

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Just another girl

Always thinking, always wondering. living everyday. She is standing strong for herself, looking forward and always try to be positive. Now, tell her something that she don't already know.

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