It’s just so strange. I feel so weird, like in all honesty I have so many questions in my head and more importantly, in my heart.
Everyone wants me to be happy and I feel so pressurized. I know everyone meant well for me, I can’t help to be scared for everything to fall apart. Everyone have so much support and faith in me, but yet… I am the only one whom feel no faith. Maybe it is because I felt so tired that I gave up, or maybe because I know that i cannot bear another heartache but it is the uncertainty that means I live a life of colors. I supposed. But I can’t helped to feel so fragile, and vulnerable while I entered into another new chapter in my life.
I talked to my babeh, and I told her how afraid I am. And she told me to give it another shot, since I am almost always crying everyday. Trust my heart and follow it.
Everyone else just want me to be happy too, and I feel so skeptical. But, I will keep the past behind me and looked forward.