I think I don’t want to really hide no more, it is time for me to let him know what I want from us. I really just don’t want to hide. I can give him all the time in the world, but I do not want to be invisible. What we are is legit, and what have between us shouldn’t be in the shadows.
How do I put things in words, tactfully and with care. How do I voice out, what I need from him without pushing him into the edge? How do tell him, that all I need is to stop being invisible to everybody else. It is not healthy for me, I always feel sad thinking about it. And I simply had enough of silent thoughts.
Todays marks another month together, and while all the joy and happiness he tries to bring to me, at times I can’t help it but to feel so alone.
I am glad to have you, while we watch the world go by and the kites soar into the blue sky. I want to be like those kites.
When will it be ever my turn to soar, free and away from the pressing issue. Tick tock, tick tock..