Disappointed disappointment 

I don’t expect anyone to understand me. It’s okay if anyone wants to judge and say endless shit, cause at the end of the day they are not at the receiving end. 

I had it. Truly had it. 

I am so tired of being everyone’s bitch. But more of all, I am disappointed in the man I love. I cannot believe that he don’t have that sense of urgency or understanding towards me. He don’t seemed to get why I am so agitated or needing to be away and start afresh. 

Judging of the way I see it, we have only two options. Stay with my parents or move out to my grandmother. I am glad that you knew what I want to say. 

How could he say such a hurtful statement? After all that we go through, he thinks it’s okay to be the way that he is? A child. Have he have no shame? Stay at my grandmother’s is out of shame and embarrassment. People mock at me for not have any place to call home, and he still thinks that we can take shelter at someone’s place. And staying with his parents is an option after months of fighting, pain, turmoil and heartache he put himself and myself through. He thinks it’s okay to stay and hang around and not prove himself? I am tired to be the one at fault, for something I did not cause. He used me as a shield, his father used me as a weapon. What the fuck is this? I am not a play toy. 

I had it. 

I am sticking to my job, at least one person is supporting the mortage or rental. 

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Just another girl

Always thinking, always wondering. living everyday. She is standing strong for herself, looking forward and always try to be positive. Now, tell her something that she don't already know.

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