Who knew we will come back to square one. Back to the same room, hugging and saying our one last goodbye? That very same moment we had 2 years ago, replay again, like a blade slowly piercing into my heart.
We fought and we cried and we hanged on for so long, that I realised that we can never have our happy ending, even though we prayed to the gods and wished with all our hearts.
We were blessed with a good Qian, and we knew that we can do great things together. But I am hurting him. The blatant fact that I can never make anyone like me, hurts him in return and we had to stop.
I had to stop.
I got onto my knees and begged him to let me go, before we can never find peace. I begged him with all my heart to go back to his family, because I am not the person who “steals”. I begged with all my soul that it will not hurt, but this is by far the most painful decision I have ever made
To see the man who will do great things in his life cry for you, you know that there is enough damage. I am not the person everyone thinks that I am. But yet, all the blame and fault is on me. I knew that eventually we will part ways no matter what because I am hurting him.
I love you.